I want to live where soul meets body

I think, maybe, that I'm getting over it. I hope I'm getting over it. Now when I drive past where you live your car isn't there, which means that you aren't there. It doesn't hurt now, it kinda just aches a little bit. I'm not bitter and I'm not depressed, I just miss you a little bit. Just the tiniest of bits. And surely I'm allowed that? It's weird I thought you would be around forever, that you would never leave. You stayed true to your words though, I respect that.
It's difficult now to tell. Now that I'm happier with who I am and don't use you as a crutch, or can't use you as a crutch, if I needed you before. I was vulnerable and incredibly sad, and all it took to make it stop was either being with you or leaving you altogether. Odd, isn't it? Because all those times we were together I felt complete and happy and safe. But when I left although it ripped the dependence out of me, it left me stronger and I didn't need you to feel complete or happy. So really, did I need you? Or did I just think I did?
Oh well, I'm sure you're all sick of me writing and lamenting about him.

It turns out that I'm 18 in 42 days. Exciting but a bit scary too. I'm getting my tattoo as well, which is pretty exciting in itself. I just have to get the design down. Things are looking up. I miss Rin, but she moves into Lichfield in a week so I guess I should be happy about that. I'm just incredibly bored at the moment, what with no college and nothing really immediate to look forward to. (Exam results don't count as things to look forward to!)

I really want to go on holiday, loads and loads. But I don't know where and I don't have any money, which sucks, which reminds me I should really try harder to get a job. I just want to do something I love straight away and that's never going to happen, is it?

Anyway, I shall leave this here.
Bye x x x